Archive for Depression

Not Feeling Good

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , on 12/11/2011 by arabrhizome

I’m feeling very sad today. I’m having major doubts that I will be able to finish my thesis in time. I don’t know what I would do if I don’t. I have been so wrapped up in myself and now I’m having trouble getting back on the horse properly. It’s kind of depressing. I need to get out of this rut but I don’t know how exactly. I’m going to go out tomorrow and work somewhere new. I’ve been letting myself down and it has to stop. Anyway, I’m done moaning. I hope you’re all fine. Stay safe everyone. Love you bye.


Troy Davis

Posted in about the blog, Culture, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , on 22/09/2011 by arabrhizome

So yesterday was one of the most depressing nights in a while. Yesterday millions were watching Georgia as they tortured an innocent man and his family for four hours. Troy Davis who was murdered yesterday even though all the evidence used in order to indict him has turned out to be very doubtful. I’m not going to write a long post about it, there are many people out there who have written and are writing much more eloquently about it. I just wanted to say that yesterday felt like 2006 and 2008 when we watched helplessly as israel was murdering innocent people in Lebanon and Gaza. I know that this is only one man while more than a million died in iraq hundreds of thousands died in Afghanistan and thousands died in Lebanon and Palestine. However, this just felt very much like a huge deal. Twitter was on fire. Democracy Now had one of the best coverages I’ve ever seen. Now all we have is to hope that this will do something. We have to hope that people organise and are able to do something to stop this terrible tragic practice. Anyway, I must go to work now. I am thinking of the family and friends of Troy Davis. Stay safe everyone. Love you bye.

Short Post

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , on 21/09/2011 by arabrhizome

I’m sorry but this is going to be a very short post. I’m working at the moment. I’m trying to finally finish this chapter from hell. It’s not the easiest thing but I’m on it. Hopefully I’ll be able to go to Brazilian Jujitsu tomorrow. My leg feels a lot better so I think I can manage it. It’s been kind of hard going this past week. In other news, an innocent man is about to be murdered in the USA. Troy Davis who was wrongfully accused of a crime he didn’t commit is going to be executed tonight. The fact that 7 out of 9 of the eye witnesses recanted and said that their statements were obtained through coercion by the police seem to not be enough to save his life in the eyes of a racist system that sees black men as criminals. I am disgusted by this outcome and very sad to see another victim of the barbaric state sponsored murder known as the death penalty. Anyway, I’ve got to go back to work now. Stay safe everyone. Love you bye.

Sunday Blues

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , on 18/09/2011 by arabrhizome

So I had a bit of a downer day today. Many things are happening that are very serious, like people being gunned down in the streets of Sanaa in Yemen, or people trying to take over Wall Street. However, that’s not where my blues comes from. I’m just a little sad and I don’t know why. This happens to me occasionally and today seems to be one of those days. I was able to do some work but not enough and so will stay up late and try to work more. That’s basically all I have to say to be honest. It’s just one of those days. I hope you don’t hold it against me. Stay safe. Love you bye.

Sick To My Stomach

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized, Work with tags , , , , , , , , , on 24/08/2011 by arabrhizome

I am feeling sick to my stomach. Not only am I actually ill but I also have a meeting tomorrow. It’s a supervision and I have nothing to show for it. I feel sick to my stomach. I really don’t want to go but I can’t not go. I will probably write an email and explain to them what exactly I’m going through. I feel like I will be able to explain to them what I’m feeling by email a lot better than in person. Hopefully that way they’ll have something to say rather than me having to explain everything in person. Anyway, I’m going to go write it right now and then I’m going to work. I might actually stay up all night and try to get some work done. Stay safe everyone. Love you bye.

Goodish Day

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , , on 11/07/2011 by arabrhizome

I had a goodish day. I’m in fact still trying to work for now. I’m just trying to get back on track. It seems to be getting there. I’ve been trying to stay offline as much as possible so I don’t really know much about the news. In fact, I haven’t really listened to the news in a while, I kind of miss that. Anyway, I’m going to make myself a cup of tea now and try to continue working. Hopefully I can get something done today. I have been making some progress but nothing worth mentioning. So as always stay safe. Love you bye.

Long Week Ahead

Posted in about the blog, Me, Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on 10/07/2011 by arabrhizome

I have a long week ahead of me and I’m going to try and break the cycle. I’m not going to stay home anymore. I’m going to go either to a cafe or a tea house or university. I’m not going to let myself drown in self pity and bad habits. I am too easily distracted and by staying home I’m just reinforcing my already lazy disposition. I have emailed my supervisor to let him know that I don’t have enough to send but that I will send him whatever I have when I finish it. Hopefully he won’t hate me, although to be fair I would hate me if the roles were reversed. Anyway, that’s all from me. Hopefully if I start getting work done I’ll be able to blog properly again soon. In the mean time stay safe. Love you bye.